but at times i get so scared,
when i think about the previous,
relationship we shared.
It was awesome but we lost it,
it's not possible for me, not to care,
and now we're standin' in the rain,
but nothings ever gonna change,
until you hear, my dear
The seven things i hate about you,
the seven things i hate about you, oh you,
you're vain, your games,
you're insecure,
you love me, you like her,
you make me laugh, you make me cry,
i don't know which side to buy,
your friends, their jerks,
when you act like them, just to know it hurts,
i want to be with the one i know,
and the 7th thing i hate the most that you do,
you make me love you,
it's awkward and silent,
as i wait for you to say,
what i need to hear now,
is your sincere apology,
when you mean it, i'll believe it,
if you text it i'll delete it, let's be clear,
oh i'm not comin' back,
you're taken 7 steps here,
The seven things i hate about you,
you're vain, your games,
you're insecure,
you love me, you like her,
you make me laugh, you make me cry,
i don't know which side to buy,
your friends their jerks,
when you act like them, just to know it hurts,
i want to be, with the one i know,
and the 7th thing i hate the most that you do,
you make me love you,
And compared to all the great things,
it would take to long to write,
i probably should mention the seven that i like,
The seven things i like about you,
your hair, your eyes, your old levi's,
when we kiss i'm hypnotized,
you make me laugh, you make me cry,
but i guess that's both i'll have to buy,
your hands in mine,
when we're intertwined, everythings alright,
i want ot be with the one i know,
and the 7th thing i like the most that you do,
you make me love you, shha you do, ohhh,
oooooooooh, ooooooooooooooh, lalala la,
oooooooooh, ooooooooooooooh.
Miley Cyrus 7 things
Who said life's fair and great? Well, if you say so, get out of my blog. And come back once you realise that it isn't what you thought it is!
Well, what a sucky way to start a week.. My dear darling EX-BOYFRIEND somehow DOESN't TAKE me as his gf at all.. hahas, yay, clap for this IDIOT who believed him! Well, come on people, clap for me. isn't it nice to clap at people's mistake? Well, now is the time to clap.
He wants BLOWJOB, FINGER-FUCk, should i list more? WEll, you get the idea. Well, all he really wanted are all these FUCKING nonsense! I still can't believe i WAS or WASN't in a DAMN relationship with HIM! YAY, clap again!!
Well, his last sentence was hurtful. I lost my spirit the moment i read it. I became a dumb body walking around, not knowing what to do. It's stupid i know, ask my mom, if u don't believe me. She tried making me laugh, but in the end, my sister VOMITED at PIZZA HUT - lose face arhh!!
Well, then, i wasn't myself today too.. I have no spirit and there's emptiness in me. Funny Jokes aren't funny, laughing and smilling is hard and i forced myself to it, food taste like nothing and everything doesn't go well. I don't feel good, i felt like vomiting after eating, and my stomach hurts as it follows my moody mood.
Every one of my friends tried making me happy today, well, they SUCCEEd until HE messaged me and asked if we can meet up?
i asked: For what?
He said: Do what couples do! Like i told you..
Me: No thanx, after what you said yesterday, no thanx!
HIm: I'm sorry(in malay).. Pls..
Me: I don't know if i want to forgive you . You asked for forgiveness because you want all those. I'm sorry, but it's just hard to make a decision now..
Well, the day then became worser and worser. My hubby- ADAM, was asking me what happened to me today? I have no mood to share.. He was also in his moody mood. Ha, that makes the two of us. Two moody people on the same fucking day in the same country. Ha, what does this tell us?
Im tired.. And my head has been making me crazy the whole day. I kept remembering him from the first time i saw him and till the last i seen him.
I still love him. Radhiah hates him like hell. Theresa was there comforting me and tell me some experienced story like this happened to her and well, she survived. Thanx dears. Elfira sent a shocking message. She called him a JERk. Well, i'm proud of you, sweetheart. Thanxx soo much
To all my friends who tried making me happy today, sorry if it didn't work. I'm tired of smiling. I'm just tired. I don't feel like going to school too, cause i feel really sick. Thanx guys, love you all..
I fell in love with him the first time our eyes met,
I fell in love with him since that day on.
At first, i just wanted friendship,
But a crush developed and there's no turning back
For years i have seen him from far,
Trying to learn him,
Wanting to know more bout him.
It was this one day,
we both became friends,
After knowing each other for almost 5 years,
Smiling at each other when our eyes met,
Tried talking but ended up a failing mission,
After all those efforts trying to get his attention.
That very day,
An hour past midnight,
I got to know him more.
His name, his age, his everything.
I was happy and wanted to keep him as a friend.
The crush grew stronger and stronger,
But we became further apart.
Conversations became shorter,
Messages became one treasure to me.
What a sick life i had until that day,
I confessed to him.
The day he told me that he treated me as his girlfriend.
The day we both became couples,
The date was 13 February 2009,
Friday the 13th,
A day before Valentine.
It was not bad until he started talking bout all those stuffs.
I was against it at first,
but then, i started to play along.
I felt embarrassed of myself telling this.
I started to think.
what if i does all this,
What if he dumps me after that.
What if this and that.
Lots of questions appeared in my head.
Does he really love me like he claimed?
I got my answer a day after Valentine,
An answer that change me,
An answer that i realised i had never wished i to be found out,
An answer that broke my heart in more than million of pieces,
An answer that change my view of him,
An answer i finally learned that i had wasted time waiting.
He wasn't meant for me,
I'm not his type.
He is just no mine.
Beauty really is deceiving.
Behind a handsome face,
Lies a man that hurts others.
I loved him still,
though friends of mine wanted me to forget him.
How can i?
I'm gonna see him this thursday and so on.
Will i ever get my spirit back.
Will i ever fall in love again?
Will i ever smile and laugh again?
Will i feel happy deep down again?
Will i get to forget him forever?
The answers are blur to me.
Wait a month to see how it affected me?
I love you luthfi.
Love you soo much,
that i know we aren't meant for each other.
Those days we were as a couple,
though you said you never really took me as your girlfriend,
It was the best days i ever had with any guy!
You may hurt me,
Yet i still have the heart to love you.
You're different boy,
just change for the better.
I'll miss you, Goodbye
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Monday, February 16, 2009
8:21 PM