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Love is our Resistance ♥
They'll keep us apart, they won't stop breaking us down

KamekoChu

Her name is KamekoChu.

This shall be her short and sweet introduction.

These are the little things that make her world go round.


Family. Friends. Kamenashi Kazuya. KAT-TUN. Yamashita Tomohisa. Takuya Kimura. Music. Studies. Cats. Kittens. Chocolate cake. My Handphone. My electone. My japanese Dramas. KAT-TUN concert DVDS. My babies. My lucky ring.KAT-TUN singles. KAT-TUN albums.


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"I want to try to fall in love,
I got a chance but
I gave up before it all started "


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KAMEKOCHU <3 kAME

Go Japan
Meet Kamenashi Kazuya
Purchase all of KAT-TUN singles and albums
Own KAT-TUN merchandise
Be a billionaire before I turn 40
Help the world
Get a lot of Kamenashi Kazuya things!
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♥ October 2008
♥ November 2008
♥ December 2008
♥ January 2009
♥ February 2009
♥ March 2009
♥ April 2009
♥ May 2009
♥ June 2009
♥ July 2009
♥ August 2009
♥ October 2011
♥ November 2011


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Sunday, February 15, 2009

In this dark room, i sat all alone. The light of the computer screen filled the room but it doesn't make me feel safe and secure. I love you, darling.. but do you feel that too? Hearing the song Fall For You, how i wish you could dedicate it to me. my heart is hurting and breaking, yet you're there enjoying these things you do.
I want a normal relationship. I want someone who cares about what i feel. I love you, darling. Can you love me too? 
I have thought you're different! I want you to understand and wanted you to be the boyfriend that i had always wanted.. but somehow, you're just another guy who appeared as a real nice guy at first but inside that person is an evil person.
You broke my heart, and like i said, i swore you will never smile again. All those times thinking and wishing you're mine, are just waste of time! All those times, i saved a LARGE space in my heart for you, hopes high to have you taking that place, occupying that space. but, when you came to occupy it, you brought dirty things in my life. 
I'm taught from young, i know what's right and wrong. What you're asking me to do, is beyond everything! Why can't you be like other NORMAL guys? I want you to be like them, regardless they're hot or not! I finally got you, my empty heart is now filled. But with what? Love? I don't think so.. It's full of regret, hate and anger. I hate myself for knowing you, i hate myself for loving you, i hate myself for letting you in my life. I hate myself for all these. I hate myself for even having you in my life. 
This broken heart, is trying to heal from all those pain in the past. You opened it, ripping it, making it hard to mend. All i could do is just sit there and stare. My heart hurts even more. Falling into a pit of sharp needles or knifes, is nothing compared to the pain. I feel stupid, get it. I stood at the edge of the mountain, thinking it's the best way to see the whole picture, but somehow, i didn't know that the further i went, the more danger i put myself in.

You're the picture, I'm the dumb one, walking towards that picture, every step i took, danger starts to get greater and greater. The next thing i know is that where I'm standing, the rocks aren't strong and well, i fell.  It's a long way down, every seconds of it is full of misery and hate and wishes. If i hadn't stood there, i should've been somewhere safe in the arms of the ones i love. But somehow, I'm falling, waiting for my body to crash and break into pieces. Once I'm shattered all over the floor, an ugly scene, you're just still out there. You stood there, as another mountain, so beautiful, away from where my dead body is. It's dark i know, but this is how i feel, Luthfi.

You wanted me to kept our relationship as a secret. Having you as my boyfriend is the best thing in my life. A dream come true, but somehow, you don't see it that way! Why? Are you afraid that your friends will laugh at you for having an ugly GF life me? Well, guess what.. That isn't the way, my dear love. That isn't the way. I want to change you, but well, i just can't, can i? You're stubborn and well, you don't care. 

A girl's love may be exaggerating and it may seems impossible and foolish. But that's how we show it. It may come in all different ways, by showing emotions or roughness. A girl's heart is easily broken and well, take care of it well. Every girl wants the same thing, a great guy in her life, making her smile each day and tried his best to make her laugh. A girl can become dramatic or irritating, but that's just us girls! The heart is the most precious organ in the whole entire body system. It can make a person stronger or weaker. Broke her heart, she cried for days, Make her laugh, she can make you happy in the end. Loving her isn't enough. It's just a feeling you feel for her, show it. Not too much but little by little. It may not seem much but it's coming from your heart.

Can you be this guy Luthfi? Can you understand how i feel? Do you know how much pain you had cause. You asked for something that can't be replaced. I know i sound stupid, but a weak heart after being broken too many times, finally found the right one, became stronger for a day and then the whole world came toppling down. You make my life like this, darling..

Should i still be with you? or should i leave you? I waited far too long for it to happen, but please for me, understand will you. I have wanted you since i first lay eyes on you. I was still in Primary five then, young and innocent.. You were a year older and well, i did all my best to get your attention. And HELL yeah i did, darling. But you make me regret. 

Life isn't like this, darling. Try and understand why one doesn't feel happy and why one felt the opposite. Different people are different. We are unique in our own ways but let me tell you something,
I LOVE YOU NO MATTER WHAT..

I CAN CRY FOR DAYS, REGRET FOR A WEEK.
 I CAN HATE MYSELF, FOR LEAVING YOU.
BUT SOMEHOW IN THE FUTURE, I THANKED MYSELF FOR DOING WHAT I HAD TO DO.
A TINY THING CAN MAKE A LARGE CHANGE. .
 I LOVE YOU AND LIKE YOU PROMISED, NEVER LEAVE ME! 

Wiyah Sayang kan Luthfi selama-lamanya. Luthfi sayang Wiyah?

Kamenashi Kazuya♥WiyahTay
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